

CW suicide
I might just try to kill myself a few times in order to find the least painful way possible, both for me and for the world around me, just in case the loop ever stops and I had a real chance of escaping the suffering.
But also, maybe punch a few assholes, or try killing people that damaged me during my childhood, because I’ve never done violence and I’d like to know what physical dominance feels like. Maybe ask a few girls out to either confirm or finally absolve me of my worthlessness. In one of the loops, I’d gamble. In another loop, I’d try all the drugs that my precarious government position makes difficult to try. Oh, what I wouldn’t give for some pot and LSD. I’d move to a non transmedical society and finally receive HRT, although this wouldn’t have any effect in one single day, so never mind. If I retained my memories each time, then I’d start studying anything and everything that I’m interested in. I’d learn to recite The Silmarillion by heart.











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