It’s why I want to be there when people need a shoulder to cry on or when they are in their deepest moments
I have legit broken down in front of people and they would just stare at me. To please get it together. Friends even lol.
Personal story below. Pretty heavy.
spoiler
Worst was when my mom had just broken her back. My sister and I were put to the task of taking care of her. I didn’t know what the fuck to do. She was in so much fucking pain too. We didn’t even know at the time she’d broken her back, she was medically cleared because nobody took enough of a shit to get her x-rays.
Anyway. I was standing there, just turned 17, mom’s in bed in insane levels of pain. Sister had left for her room (no blame there, but I was the last one standing so to say). Two Friends who’d swung by standing in front of me. These two adults who stared at me as I was just, bawling. Flashbacks of taking care of my dad came rushing in. He’d died just 6 months before and we had to take care of him too. For three brutal years.
And these two friends who watched me just bawl my fucking eyes out looked at me and said ‘do you think she should go to the hospital?’
Again. I was 17. Six months after burying my dad after 3 years of intense home care. And I had nothing to fall back on. Nothing. And I was just standing there, empty handed, defeated, just a shell of a person. And they asked me what to do
I don’t fucking know dude. Just. Please be the grown-ups here. I don’t know. Please. I’m tired. I can’t do this.
Anyway. They incredulously watched me bawl, decided against it, and left. Two months later we found out she did in fact break her back and she got surgery. That’s two months of risking severe neurological trauma, bleeding, she could have lost function of her lower extremities or died.
So yeah. I want to hug that kid that was standing there and if I ever get a chance to help someone through something as shitty as that, I fucking will. Come hell or high water I will try my fucking best.
She made a full recovery by the way. But man those were some tough fucking times. Jesus christ.
It’s why I want to be there when people need a shoulder to cry on or when they are in their deepest moments
I have legit broken down in front of people and they would just stare at me. To please get it together. Friends even lol.
Personal story below. Pretty heavy.
spoiler
Worst was when my mom had just broken her back. My sister and I were put to the task of taking care of her. I didn’t know what the fuck to do. She was in so much fucking pain too. We didn’t even know at the time she’d broken her back, she was medically cleared because nobody took enough of a shit to get her x-rays.
Anyway. I was standing there, just turned 17, mom’s in bed in insane levels of pain. Sister had left for her room (no blame there, but I was the last one standing so to say). Two Friends who’d swung by standing in front of me. These two adults who stared at me as I was just, bawling. Flashbacks of taking care of my dad came rushing in. He’d died just 6 months before and we had to take care of him too. For three brutal years.
And these two friends who watched me just bawl my fucking eyes out looked at me and said ‘do you think she should go to the hospital?’
Again. I was 17. Six months after burying my dad after 3 years of intense home care. And I had nothing to fall back on. Nothing. And I was just standing there, empty handed, defeated, just a shell of a person. And they asked me what to do
I don’t fucking know dude. Just. Please be the grown-ups here. I don’t know. Please. I’m tired. I can’t do this.
Anyway. They incredulously watched me bawl, decided against it, and left. Two months later we found out she did in fact break her back and she got surgery. That’s two months of risking severe neurological trauma, bleeding, she could have lost function of her lower extremities or died.
So yeah. I want to hug that kid that was standing there and if I ever get a chance to help someone through something as shitty as that, I fucking will. Come hell or high water I will try my fucking best.
She made a full recovery by the way. But man those were some tough fucking times. Jesus christ.